From The Evanescence Reference

I think the lyric is "I want to die" rather than "I long to die." I hear two distinct T sounds. --XERXES_II 9:18, 15 January 2007 (PST)

Yes, I agree with XERXES II. It sounds like "I want to die", and in the official sheet music it's also written that. --ɛṽɒŋӟṩcͻ 11:35, 16 January 2007 (PST)